Thursday, 5 July 2012

No longer pregnant

I've woken up and I'm no longer pregnant.

Makes me feel very numb and very hollow inside.

This might be the end of the road for us. Two ectopics and two losses in 4 months is more than anyone can handle.

Wednesday, 4 July 2012

CD44 / 28DPO / 23DPT

They found the pregnancy .... the embryo has attached itself to the tiny stump where my right tube use to live. HCG had also increased and is now over 3000 so I'm booked for surgery this afternoon.

I just can't believe this is another ectopic and another loss.

Mum has arrived and is keeping our spirits up.

Tuesday, 3 July 2012

CD43 / 27DPO / 22DPT

The decision is made. We've decided on the MTX injection. I call our FS and we're advised to make our way over to RPA Hospital for the injection. We arrive at RPA and the staff are lovely, we can seen to straight away. But ..... The head OB/GYN isn't convinced and won't give me the injection. Instead I'm admitted into hospital for monitoring overnight. WTF? When will this torture end? Repeat beta and ultrasound in the morning.

Monday, 2 July 2012

CD42 / 26DPO / 21DPT of ICSI #4

Hcg = 2034 Prog = 23.6 Estr = 2248 I had a bad weekend. Was in terrible pain on Saturday and my clinic nurse told me to expect a miscarriage. So I sent JJ up to the chemist to stock up on pads, painkillers and chocolate and cried most of the afternoon and night. The pain was a horrid and a 10/10. The worst pain I've ever felt. But the next morning, the pain subsided and I was dumbfounded. No bleeding at all. My stomach was very tender but no miscarriage happened. Hubby was scared to leave me alone so he took the day off work and came to my appt. After getting the above beta results this morning, my FS agreed to send me for a scan but it was bad news. The scan revealed an empty womb, no sac could be seen, so the diagnosis was ectopic. I managed to hold it together at the clinic, the shock made me completely numb. Hubby and I drove home in silence ..... Couldn't believe this was happening to us again! Our FS gave us two choices; * laparoscopy surgery * MTX injection I lost it on the phone. Cried and cried and couldn't answer her. So her advice to us was to sleep on it and call back in the morning with our decision. Why is this happening again?