Wednesday, 26 June 2013

4 months on

First of all, let me start by saying I'm doing ok. Each day certainly gets easier, but the hurt and pain I'll never forget. The minute I allow myself to think about what happened in December, I disintegrate. But those moments are few and far between now.

Having a therapist helps and so does a quick week away in Thailand. Hubby and I had a chance to talk. Really talk. About adoption, surrogacy, reviewing the option of IVF as a high risk patient or cease the parenthood quest. No decisions made yet!

Yesterday was a hard day. I would have been 35 weeks pregnant and probably starting my maternity leave.

Deep breath.

Did anyone else read Mary Coustas' story in the Sydney Morning Herald on the weekend? I can't stop thinking about it. Mary is such an Australian public face and yet her hurt, pain and loss is more than I can ever imagine. You can read her story about custody, infertility and losing loved ones here. It's a long article but absolutely beautifully told!

I'm spending a lot of time over at my other blog these days - The Lover List. I find talking about lovely things is helping to heal the mind and spirit. Please pop over and say hi sometime.

Life, Love and Light



Anonymous said...

Good to hear from you. Naomi (aka Puddycat)

Jules said...

Glad you're OK as you can be. xo