First of all, let me start by saying I'm doing ok. Each day certainly gets easier, but the hurt and pain I'll never forget. The minute I allow myself to think about what happened in December, I disintegrate. But those moments are few and far between now.
Having a therapist helps and so does a quick week away in Thailand. Hubby and I had a chance to talk. Really talk. About adoption, surrogacy, reviewing the option of IVF as a high risk patient or cease the parenthood quest. No decisions made yet!
Yesterday was a hard day. I would have been 35 weeks pregnant and probably starting my maternity leave.
Did anyone else read Mary Coustas' story in the Sydney Morning Herald on the weekend? I can't stop thinking about it. Mary is such an Australian public face and yet her hurt, pain and loss is more than I can ever imagine. You can read her story about custody, infertility and losing loved ones here. It's a long article but absolutely beautifully told!
I'm spending a lot of time over at my other blog these days - The Lover List. I find talking about lovely things is helping to heal the mind and spirit. Please pop over and say hi sometime.
Life, Love and Light