Warning - bad mood ahead

Today is CD32. I'm 90% sure I'm out this month ... which shouldn't surprise me really. I mean, I've lost a tube, I'm using donor sperm, no CQ10 consumed this cycle and life has been crazy lately.

Feeling crap today. I've woken up with a headache, I'm crampy, my (.)(.) hurt and I'm very bloated - all perfect signs that AF is on her way.

I despise you AF!

I kindly ask you to F-off for a while.

Give me and hubby a break and ride your broomstick else, you wicked witch.

Is anyone else needing a break from AF and her wicked ways??? 

CD30 / 14DPO / 9DPT of ICSI #4

I had vowed not to POAS this week, however something got the better of me yesterday and I found an old IC HPT under the bathroom sink and decided to test. 

Low and behold, it was .....

BFN

Shock. Horror. How could that be? I have all the pregnancy symptoms. HAHAHA!! As a veteran of this IVF procedure, you'd think I'd remind myself daily that these symptoms are also AF.

I jumped in the shower and tried really hard not to cry. The rest of my day was a write off - I was miserable and didn't want to talk to anyone.

I was on the verge of a mini breakdown, especially after DH and BF screamed at me for testing so early. But I don't think it was early. 85% of women discover a BFP at 13DPO. Anyway, lesson learned and I won't be testing again - I intend to wait for my beta test on Friday. 

In the meantime, the symptoms continue:

• Sooooo tired
• AF cramps
• Sharp jabbing pain on the left side
• Slight bloating
• Sore boobs
• Insomnia
• Wake up hot
• Nausea in the morning - coffee is a struggle
• Blocked sinus

I'm telling myself today to have FAITH, have HOPE and to BELIEVE this can happen. I will see a BFP one day.